Around 2 a.m. last night I woke up with terrible cramps, and for some weird unknown reason because my brain sometimes work in a confusing way, I thought “gosh, it really has been such a long time since I last blogged despite the many times I’ve included ‘start blogging again’ as one of my monthly/yearly goals.”
And for once, I thought it’s time to actually act on that thought. After all, I do have, not one but two, domains ready for me… and honestly it’s a bit sad that I’ve been paying for them but not utilizing them one bit. One would think that I could’ve opted to just stop paying and be done with it, but on the other hand I do love my domain names profoundly, and well… the goal is to start blogging again, after all.
Part of me is somewhat worried — leftover anxiety from negative past experiences — about putting myself out here again. Another worry is not being able to keep up with blogging (again), as well as the worry of not knowing what to write, or whether any of that will matter, because will anyone even read this and/or care?
But then again, as an educator (it still feels weird calling myself that, to be honest), don’t I tell my students that they should give it a go and take the first step even if it’s scary? So why am I not practicing what I preach?
And thus, I decided that there’s no better time than now to just write, to just start, and hopefully keep going.